Still raining in usually sunny California. It's great to have the rain but many people here do not seem to know how to drive, so it's a mess. Lol! Today I awoke, watched my favorite Pastor on t.v., spoke my daily confessions, prayed, worked out, did housework, prepared for a midterm, and now it's 8:21 p.m. Amazing! It's like time is sped up.
Grief seems to be diminishing for me, I mean in terms of the heavy heart and sadness. I am still very affected by sad or mean situations....they make me cry. I am praying for the people of Haiti because I cannot even fathom that kind of devastation, but I cannot watch the events on television, it's just too much for me right now.
I want to go over where I am in the BAADD (5 stages of grief) process in a little more detail tonight. Bargaining, not at all, who would I bargain with at this point? Lol! Acceptance, I have totally accepted the loss of both of my parents. Anger, I did not have a manifestation today but when pushed I can get angry fast, but I am able to control and constrain myself. Depression tries to be a constant, but I fight it with all that I have. Prayer, exercise, God's Spirit, God's Word, and eating right also helps me to combat depression. Denial, not so much, as I am fully aware of my losses but I remain in unbelief.
As always, remember to laugh, live, and love always and intentionally because tomorrow is not promised.
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