Footprints of Death...............
I made it through Thanksgiving and I felt at peace with the situation....in fact I think that the sting of loss has started to dissipate. I now have peace in knowing that I don't have to worry about my parent's well-being anymore. Yeah, I still miss them terribly, but I have joy.
In terms of the BAADD process, here we go:
Bargaining- Not at all.
Acceptance-Totally.
Anger-Not anymore.
Denial- No, but I'm still in unbelief.
Depression- No, I'm doing well.
Tuesday, November 30, 2010
Friday, November 26, 2010
Days 340-346
Footprints of Death...............
Yesterday was the 2nd Thanksgiving without both of my parents. It was different but yet my siblings and I made it. I felt a sense of peace in knowing that my parents no longer have to suffer with illness and I no longer worry about their safety and well-being.
In terms of the BAADD process, here we go:
Bargaining- Not at all.
Acceptance-Totally.
Anger-Not anymore.
Denial- No, but I'm still in unbelief.
Depression- No, I'm doing well.
Yesterday was the 2nd Thanksgiving without both of my parents. It was different but yet my siblings and I made it. I felt a sense of peace in knowing that my parents no longer have to suffer with illness and I no longer worry about their safety and well-being.
In terms of the BAADD process, here we go:
Bargaining- Not at all.
Acceptance-Totally.
Anger-Not anymore.
Denial- No, but I'm still in unbelief.
Depression- No, I'm doing well.
Thursday, November 18, 2010
Days 332-339
Footprints of Death...............
The holiday season is approaching and this time tends to remind me of what I do not have even though I am grateful for what I have. In this case, the holidays cause me to miss my parents terribly. This is a weird time so I am depending on God to take me through this season. I intend to continue to write on this blog more often during the holiday season just to vent my feelings.
In terms of the BAADD or 5 stages of grief process, I better go over it:
Bargaining- Not at all.
Acceptance- Yes, I have accepted it but my acceptance has yet to give way to approval.
Anger- Not anymore.
Depression- No.
Denial- Not at all but I am still in unbelief.
As always remember to laugh, live, and love always and on purpose.
The holiday season is approaching and this time tends to remind me of what I do not have even though I am grateful for what I have. In this case, the holidays cause me to miss my parents terribly. This is a weird time so I am depending on God to take me through this season. I intend to continue to write on this blog more often during the holiday season just to vent my feelings.
In terms of the BAADD or 5 stages of grief process, I better go over it:
Bargaining- Not at all.
Acceptance- Yes, I have accepted it but my acceptance has yet to give way to approval.
Anger- Not anymore.
Depression- No.
Denial- Not at all but I am still in unbelief.
As always remember to laugh, live, and love always and on purpose.
Thursday, November 11, 2010
Days 326-331
Footprints of Death...............
I made it! Yesterday was the one (1) year anniversary since my Daddy's death. I think I handled the day much better than I thought that I would. I felt calm. I felt happy.........and finally I felt that he was able to be at peace. I watched my Daddy suffer through terrible physical and mental illnesses and I am relieved to know that I don't have to worry him being hurt or lost somewhere because of his illness. I have relief that I hope leads to my complete happiness. I used to wonder if I would ever have "complete happiness" now I am adamant that I will continue to pursue happiness. Like all the other things that I have pursued in life, I am sure that I will find it.
Remember to laugh, live, and love always and on purpose because tomorrow is not promised.
I made it! Yesterday was the one (1) year anniversary since my Daddy's death. I think I handled the day much better than I thought that I would. I felt calm. I felt happy.........and finally I felt that he was able to be at peace. I watched my Daddy suffer through terrible physical and mental illnesses and I am relieved to know that I don't have to worry him being hurt or lost somewhere because of his illness. I have relief that I hope leads to my complete happiness. I used to wonder if I would ever have "complete happiness" now I am adamant that I will continue to pursue happiness. Like all the other things that I have pursued in life, I am sure that I will find it.
Remember to laugh, live, and love always and on purpose because tomorrow is not promised.
Friday, November 5, 2010
Days 320-325
Footprints of Death...............
One down one to go. I made it through my Mom's passing anniversary. Next, I am preparing myself for my Dad's one (1 )year death anniversary. This process has not been easy but I am sure that I would not have made it without God's help. It was God who got me through my lowest points and I am eternally grateful.
One down one to go. I made it through my Mom's passing anniversary. Next, I am preparing myself for my Dad's one (1 )year death anniversary. This process has not been easy but I am sure that I would not have made it without God's help. It was God who got me through my lowest points and I am eternally grateful.
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