Days 518-536

Footprints of Death...............

I am amazed by the chain of events that have been happening in my life.  I feel closer to God and I feel like God is taking me to a new level in Him.  My relationship with God has been the key to my ability to make it through the darkness of grief.  Recently, I was beginning a relationship.  After a few months, I knew in my heart that this man was not the kind of man for me.  I started to pick fights with him because I wanted him to leave me alone.  It worked.  Later on, someone asked me, "how are you going to deal with the loss of the relationship?"  I said, "Well, it was not a "relationship" yet.  Also, if I made it through the death of my parents, my aunt, and my great-aunt, which were the people I loved and that really loved me back, then I can make it through ANYTHING!"  I was so proud of myself for that one statement because it was honest and I really felt the truth of that statement in my soul.  How can I feel encouraged and hopeful for the future when I have lost so many loved ones?  It must be the grace of God.