Days 498-517

Footprints of Death...............

It's been such a long time since I've written, I almost don't know what to say.

First things first, I have been feeling pretty good.  I have a few stresses that I am believing God to give me the strength to defeat, but other than that I have no complaints.

In terms of grief, it seems to come and go at will.  There are some days, weeks, or months where I feel great and then out of no where I will hear a song, smell a scent, or have an experience that reminds me of the ones that I have lost.  This phenomenon is truly mind boggling to me but this is my journey and I fully intend to face it victoriously.

As usual,  I am going to go through the 5 stages of grief using the acronym that I created based on the stages of grief.

Bargaining- Not at all.  I have lost the loved ones already.
Acceptance- In my head I have accepted their losses but my heart may never understand these losses.
Anger- Sometimes.
Denial- Not at all.
Depression- At times, but I understand the emotion and try to move quickly past it.

I am continuing my journey and hope to do it laughing, living, and loving.