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Footprints of Death...............
This song right now is getting me through tough times. This song blessed me and I hope that it may bless someone else. This song is available on itunes right now.
Thursday, April 21, 2011
Tuesday, April 19, 2011
re: Days 487-495
Footprints of Death...............
Tonight's blog is short because I am at a loss for words. My feelings are: tired, a bit drained, and ready for change. On a lighter note, I am glad to be alive and to have another opportunity to experience God's grace.
As always, I intend to laugh, live, and love always and on purpose.
Tonight's blog is short because I am at a loss for words. My feelings are: tired, a bit drained, and ready for change. On a lighter note, I am glad to be alive and to have another opportunity to experience God's grace.
As always, I intend to laugh, live, and love always and on purpose.
Monday, April 11, 2011
re: Days 485-486
Footprints of Death...............
I found out yesterday that I my best friend lost her Dad this past weekend (4/9-4/10/11). I am beyond words right now. Her Dad took my friend and I everywhere when we were kids. He was always so supportive of my best friend and he was just a great human being. I don't care how many times I have had to deal with death, I can never seem to prepare for it. It just seems so final! As a Christian, I do believe that I will have an opportunity to see loved ones again, but I just miss those that I love so much in this realm (earth), that those feelings cloud anything else.
Well, I am building myself up spiritually so that I can be there for my friend. She will need me! Because I love her, I will be there in any capacity that she may need me.
Remembering to laugh, live, and love always and with purpose.
I found out yesterday that I my best friend lost her Dad this past weekend (4/9-4/10/11). I am beyond words right now. Her Dad took my friend and I everywhere when we were kids. He was always so supportive of my best friend and he was just a great human being. I don't care how many times I have had to deal with death, I can never seem to prepare for it. It just seems so final! As a Christian, I do believe that I will have an opportunity to see loved ones again, but I just miss those that I love so much in this realm (earth), that those feelings cloud anything else.
Well, I am building myself up spiritually so that I can be there for my friend. She will need me! Because I love her, I will be there in any capacity that she may need me.
Remembering to laugh, live, and love always and with purpose.
Saturday, April 9, 2011
Days 477-484
Footprints of Death...............
I am amazed at how I made it through this past week. This past week was terrible. I had some challenges and I just wished I could go home to my parents' house and curl up with them in the bed until I felt better. As the youngest kid in my family or "the baby" I had a lot of alone time with my parents and they just had a way of making me feel loved and whole just by being in their presence. I needed them this week but having them was not possible because they are no longer living. This is/was tough! Grief has a way of rearing its ugly head at the MOST unopportune times, but I am determined to admit my issues and defeat grief.
I better run through the 5 stages of grief for this past week. Here's my self-made acronym for the 5 stages of grief BAADD:
Bargaining- Not at all, no one to bargain with.
Acceptance- My mind has accepted it but my heart has not.
Anger- Yes, this past week was rough and I was angry that I do not have parents to run home to.
Denial- Not at all
Depression- Perhaps, I simply have no desire to be around other people right now as few understand me or my feelings (yes, i know that this is an illogical over-generalization but I am emoting right now, not trying to think logically).
Despite my feelings, I know that God has me in the palm of His hands. I feel Him close to me. Needless to say, I spent much time in prayer this week. Prayers is my best weapon against the stages and effects of grief.
I am amazed at how I made it through this past week. This past week was terrible. I had some challenges and I just wished I could go home to my parents' house and curl up with them in the bed until I felt better. As the youngest kid in my family or "the baby" I had a lot of alone time with my parents and they just had a way of making me feel loved and whole just by being in their presence. I needed them this week but having them was not possible because they are no longer living. This is/was tough! Grief has a way of rearing its ugly head at the MOST unopportune times, but I am determined to admit my issues and defeat grief.
I better run through the 5 stages of grief for this past week. Here's my self-made acronym for the 5 stages of grief BAADD:
Bargaining- Not at all, no one to bargain with.
Acceptance- My mind has accepted it but my heart has not.
Anger- Yes, this past week was rough and I was angry that I do not have parents to run home to.
Denial- Not at all
Depression- Perhaps, I simply have no desire to be around other people right now as few understand me or my feelings (yes, i know that this is an illogical over-generalization but I am emoting right now, not trying to think logically).
Despite my feelings, I know that God has me in the palm of His hands. I feel Him close to me. Needless to say, I spent much time in prayer this week. Prayers is my best weapon against the stages and effects of grief.
Friday, April 1, 2011
Days 463-476
Footprints of Death...............
I feel a little anxious. There are some things that I need to be removed in my life and other things that I really need to change. The feelings linked to death do not seem to be a barrier to any of these issues and I feel as if I have moved past the 5 stages of grief rather nicely. At this point, I just really miss the ones that I lost through death.
Despite, life's twists and turns I AM determined to move forward.
Remember to laugh, live, and love always and on purpose.
I feel a little anxious. There are some things that I need to be removed in my life and other things that I really need to change. The feelings linked to death do not seem to be a barrier to any of these issues and I feel as if I have moved past the 5 stages of grief rather nicely. At this point, I just really miss the ones that I lost through death.
Despite, life's twists and turns I AM determined to move forward.
Remember to laugh, live, and love always and on purpose.
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