Footprints of Death...............
I don't have much to say. Today was a good day. No complaints, however, I am tired. Good night.
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
Tuesday, April 20, 2010
Day 125
Footprints of Death...............
Today was a little weird. The day started out well and I felt like it was going to be an easy day. Then without warning I was thrown a curve ball. At first I tried to ignore the issue, then finally I just planted my feet and dealt with the issue. Have you ever had an issue that you wished would just go away? Yea, me too and that's how I felt today.
There have been so many deaths around me that I am starting to feel a little numb again. I feel as if the grief process is my own when I hear of someone else's loss. I truly give my condolences to all of those who have lost a loved one. I understand your pain. The pain of grief is one that only God and time can heal.
Have a restful night!
Today was a little weird. The day started out well and I felt like it was going to be an easy day. Then without warning I was thrown a curve ball. At first I tried to ignore the issue, then finally I just planted my feet and dealt with the issue. Have you ever had an issue that you wished would just go away? Yea, me too and that's how I felt today.
There have been so many deaths around me that I am starting to feel a little numb again. I feel as if the grief process is my own when I hear of someone else's loss. I truly give my condolences to all of those who have lost a loved one. I understand your pain. The pain of grief is one that only God and time can heal.
Have a restful night!
Monday, April 19, 2010
Day 124
Footprints of Death...............
I am so glad I made it through today, Monday. My energy felt low all day for some reason. I am too tired for further explanation. Good night.
I am so glad I made it through today, Monday. My energy felt low all day for some reason. I am too tired for further explanation. Good night.
Sunday, April 18, 2010
Day 123
Footprints of Death...............
I was just thinking about how much my feelings have changed since I first created the BAADD (5 stages of grief) acronym in November when I first began to blog. Back then I was angry, depressed, discouraged, disappointed, and pretty much DONE due the loss of my mom 10 years prior and the loss of my Dad 11/10/2009. I had no idea how I would go on, in fact, I had no desire to go on.
Today, I am feeling so much much better and God has done a phenomenal healing in my emotions. I feel excited about the future again and I know that the ones that I lost are somewhere cheering me on. Some days I sense their (my parents) presence so strongly, some days when I am about to make an important decision, I hear their voices. I so appreciate the guidance of God and my parents because without it I am not sure where I would be.
For anyone who has just lost a loved one and you are feeling BAADD, please know that these feelings will not last if you can just persevere through them. I also pray that God gives you peace and allows you to sleep restfully.
Remembering to laugh, live, and love!
I was just thinking about how much my feelings have changed since I first created the BAADD (5 stages of grief) acronym in November when I first began to blog. Back then I was angry, depressed, discouraged, disappointed, and pretty much DONE due the loss of my mom 10 years prior and the loss of my Dad 11/10/2009. I had no idea how I would go on, in fact, I had no desire to go on.
Today, I am feeling so much much better and God has done a phenomenal healing in my emotions. I feel excited about the future again and I know that the ones that I lost are somewhere cheering me on. Some days I sense their (my parents) presence so strongly, some days when I am about to make an important decision, I hear their voices. I so appreciate the guidance of God and my parents because without it I am not sure where I would be.
For anyone who has just lost a loved one and you are feeling BAADD, please know that these feelings will not last if you can just persevere through them. I also pray that God gives you peace and allows you to sleep restfully.
Remembering to laugh, live, and love!
Saturday, April 17, 2010
Day 122
Footprints of Death...............
I was not feeling well when I awoke this morning. I just felt awful. Today I had plans to spend time with family but could not attend because I did not feel well. As the day progressed I felt much better.
In regard to personal progress, I have been working hard on a personal dream. I am confident that my idea will be successful. I think my dream is a much needed idea these days.
In regard to grief I am alright. I retired the BAADD (5 stages of grief) acronym because I don't feel that way anymore. I am still taking the healing process one day at a time.
I was not feeling well when I awoke this morning. I just felt awful. Today I had plans to spend time with family but could not attend because I did not feel well. As the day progressed I felt much better.
In regard to personal progress, I have been working hard on a personal dream. I am confident that my idea will be successful. I think my dream is a much needed idea these days.
In regard to grief I am alright. I retired the BAADD (5 stages of grief) acronym because I don't feel that way anymore. I am still taking the healing process one day at a time.
Thursday, April 15, 2010
Day 121
Footprints of Death...............
I am sooo tired. I'm gonna turn in. I'll check back tomorrow.
I am sooo tired. I'm gonna turn in. I'll check back tomorrow.
Wednesday, April 14, 2010
Day 120
Footprints of Death...............
I am in constant transition. Today, I was quiet and I have pulled myself away from things and people as I feel the need to do so. I was motivated to cultivate new friendships and do new things but I suddenly feel the need to retreat and just be still. I try to listen to my spiritual side whenever I hear it speak.....so I am being still. I believe that God has my best interest at heart and he will make His Will for my life clear. Sorry, I don't know where that came from, but I had to say it.
I am taking things one day at a time. I am learning to trust God for everything. I must admit that this is a scary place to be because I am so used to doing things for myself and for others. It is unusual for me to be the recipient of or in need of help myself. I despise needing help. This season of rebuilding after grief has helped me to become more comfortable with understanding that it is o.k. to need and be helped. So many people have been a great emotional support to me during this time. The "new" me understands that I had to admit that I needed emotional support. After I accepted that reality, I accepted the help...and I am glad that I did. I am just grateful for where I am today emotionally. I had a mental picture of myself today. When my Dad passed away 5 months ago I felt like a big open wound. Today, I saw myself as a wound healing nicely with a scar that's nearly closed. That picture made me happy.
I am in constant transition. Today, I was quiet and I have pulled myself away from things and people as I feel the need to do so. I was motivated to cultivate new friendships and do new things but I suddenly feel the need to retreat and just be still. I try to listen to my spiritual side whenever I hear it speak.....so I am being still. I believe that God has my best interest at heart and he will make His Will for my life clear. Sorry, I don't know where that came from, but I had to say it.
I am taking things one day at a time. I am learning to trust God for everything. I must admit that this is a scary place to be because I am so used to doing things for myself and for others. It is unusual for me to be the recipient of or in need of help myself. I despise needing help. This season of rebuilding after grief has helped me to become more comfortable with understanding that it is o.k. to need and be helped. So many people have been a great emotional support to me during this time. The "new" me understands that I had to admit that I needed emotional support. After I accepted that reality, I accepted the help...and I am glad that I did. I am just grateful for where I am today emotionally. I had a mental picture of myself today. When my Dad passed away 5 months ago I felt like a big open wound. Today, I saw myself as a wound healing nicely with a scar that's nearly closed. That picture made me happy.
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
Day 119
Footprints of Death...............
I'll check in quickly. I have been very busy working on a life-long dream of mine. I am elated by the opportunity to finally do what I love, but I am saddened by the fact that my neither of my parents are here to see my work. Bittersweet to say the least.
I wish I could advise everyone to love those around you and do not sweat the small stuff. Life is short, let's enjoy it!
Good night!
I'll check in quickly. I have been very busy working on a life-long dream of mine. I am elated by the opportunity to finally do what I love, but I am saddened by the fact that my neither of my parents are here to see my work. Bittersweet to say the least.
I wish I could advise everyone to love those around you and do not sweat the small stuff. Life is short, let's enjoy it!
Good night!
Sunday, April 11, 2010
Day 117
Footprints of Death...............
Today marks the end of an era for me. There are things and people that you need to let go of sometimes. Today I let go of both and I am sure that this transition is for the best.
In terms of grief, I am feeling good today. I am just trying to move into the direction of my destiny. I know that I will be successful this time.
See ya later!
Today marks the end of an era for me. There are things and people that you need to let go of sometimes. Today I let go of both and I am sure that this transition is for the best.
In terms of grief, I am feeling good today. I am just trying to move into the direction of my destiny. I know that I will be successful this time.
See ya later!
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